#repost @malumir.logan (@get_repost) ・・・ THE NIGHT THE NORTHERN LIGHTS SAVED MY LIFE ✨ I was about to drive my car off the road. ✨ The weight of the wrenching pain in every fibre of my being was just too much. ✨ In one fell swoop, I had lost my most intimate relationships and support systems, and had so much unresolved, unacknowledged #trauma buried deep in my bones. ✨ The one remaining support was God/#Spirit/Universe. I didn’t believe in #suicide. But I couldn’t reconcile my shredded soul to continuing on. ✨ I started a conversation with God. I said that I just didn’t think I could actually go any further. That in life I had tried so hard, for so long. But that it was just too much, that I just didn’t know how I could possibly handle any more pain. And what would it matter anymore anyway, since there wasn’t really anyone in my life who genuinely loved me anyway. ✨ I decided then that I would gain speed, and at the next large tree, ram my car into the tree at full speed. ✨ At that very moment, I was shocked out of my pain-drenched planning. ✨✨✨Dancing in the sky above the nearby small town were the #northernlights.✨✨✨ Let’s be really clear about two things. 1) I had not been drinking, nor was I on any other substances. 2) It was not a northern small town, and northern lights are not expected in that geographic area. ✨✨And yet here I was, witnessing the northern lights, while still in conversation with God and moments before taking my own life.✨✨ ✨ I got the message. ✨ I slowed down, I broke down into sobs. I sat and witnessed this powerful phenomenon. ✨ Was everything magically fixed? No, of course not. Life was still a struggle for awhile, but I knew I had to keep pushing forward. ✨ Although working through and #healing those compounded layers of trauma was a multi-year journey, this moment was paramount. ✨ No giving up. Less hopelessness, more #selflove and compassion. Get help. You are #worthit, you
Shoutout to the ladies who put in WORK. Who are up early. Girls that grind. Who know sacrifice and discipline. Who persevere. Who prioritize self love. Who rise above. Who hold it down. You are NOT born with it. You act like you have it, even when sometimes you don’t. You choose it. You develop it. YOU OWN IT. . Tag a friend who WORKS.