Sometimes, you just gotta wing it 🧚🏻♀️ . . . The dress has wings hehe . . . Instagram has been my escape from mental stress. Last week my oldest sister yelled the deepest insults at me when SHE walked in on ME changing after a shower (our home bathroom door has no locks ... ugh ... and she was visiting and has no respect for privacy). Her unwarranted insults included saying I'm worthless, that I'm a fake bitch, that my grandfather would be ashamed of me, that I need to move out (yeah I am in the process ...), that no one likes me. She's bipolar too and partially in denial. Her social and professional life has been rocky, especially as of recent, and she projected her insecurities onto me. I am easy to blame since I was the most vocal about mental health. I've done more research than the whole family AND I've studied it in my psychology courses. . . Yesterday my dad yelled at me a lot again about my desired move down to San Diego. No word about my travel grant I got, no sign of pride, nothing. But I get the most emotional yelling about trying to find a job and housing in SD. He doesnt care how much I try behind the scenes. He just wants tangible evidence. Yesterday my thoughts of wanting to be dead rushed back into existence. I wished I would get a brain aneurysm or some other "natural" death. I'm quite sure he is bipolar and since I am too, we flare each other up. I just want to move away asap and be financially dependent again. I just want to feel like myself again. I regress so much being at home. All I want to do is forget who I am when I'm home. . . So. Sometimes. I wish those wings on my dress were real.
"Bow" down to he who bears the Attack on Titan basement key 🗝 @mikebowshow . . . Mike - so grateful to have met and chatted with you! You're so patient and welcoming to everyone and your energy just radiates through the room. Your humor and personable aura made my day even better than it already was! I've been wanting to meet you for so long and I'm so happy for your success!!! Keep those puns coming and dimples showing! #dimplefam . . . I forgive you for having a smaller silver version of the key.
BUTT wait ... there's more [corgi butts]!!! 🐶🍑 . . . @hwang.irene thank you for all the laughs, love, friendship, pre-optometry angst, reminiscing, Foresight sisterhood, and Korean princess vibes. I'm so glad we are both on the same path because you comfort me especially when we lowkey cry together about the struggles. You're so humble and considerate - and you know me perfectly. This corgi butt purse goes well with my corgi butt cushion and brightens my day whenever I grope it. Congrats on your accomplishments and I'll join you soon!!!
🎼 Are you Happy Now? 🎶 . . . @zedd @beauzmusic remix of Happy Now is such a mood uplifter. . . Find them on all platforms!!! . . My top remixes/original songs by @beauzmusic: - Alibi - Never Over - Love the Way You Move - Crazy - Happy Now - Was (Johan singing woooo) - Bending - Words - I Wanna Know - Midsummer Madness @88rising - Dont Pray For Me - thank u, next @arianagrande - We Dont Talk Anymore - And many more hehehe
The OG homie, Jo 🤙🏻... long post ahead 💕 . . . . Sway fact #26: Joleen and I met in 6th grade and we've been friends ever since. From dumplings parties to countless boba trips, Joleen has always been such a genuine friend whose bright energy and humbleness make anyone around her feel loved. She has always been so supportive and understanding throughout all these years, and an inspirational to everyone especially our friend group. She is selfless (volunteering for so many causes), hard working (#ucsdalumni), gorgeous (#model, #legsfordays), talented (cooking, baking, aesthetics, dog-owning, yoga, blogging, @joleencuisine), and just so well-rounded. I always mention her to my friends bc her endeavors are just astounding. She is always up to something good and she looks ahead to her bright future instead of dwelling on anything negative. Joleen is self-reflective and has taught me a lot about life by just being her. I love you, Joleen - thank you for everything. You mean a lot to me. . . . PS: I'll never forget the random day I ran into you, wearing her signature green puffy jacket, at the HB library with your family. Seemingly small, it meant a lot to me that I ran into a new friend from the 6th grade in public. I had switched school districts but seeing you out and about made me realize that school was going to be just fine. You made me feel at home. And yes, you've helped convert me to loving Taiwan more than China. Oops #taiwannumberone . . . #tennispartners#broleen#ucberkeleyxucsd#tritonxgoldenbear#joleencuisine#thankyou#hbbabe . . #swaywithsushi#sushisway#sushi#sway#ucberkeleyalum#ucberkeleyalumnus#calgrad#asianamerican#chineseamerican#fall#ootd#fashion#asianfashion#taiwanese#twinkie
I guess I'm just tryna get on your feed 🤷🏻♀️ . . Thank you @cindy.sway for treating me out to such a luxurious adventure, I am so grateful for you and your generosity, always. I love you and I love our memories - we have endless laughs, great stories, and cute things to bond over, all the time. Love to eternity and beyond! @malibusafaris
🐠 Finding Kokusai DORI 🐟 . . . "International Road" in Okinawa's capital city, Naha. . . Center of touristy culture, street performers, deliciously unique food (and free samples omgomg arigato gozaimasu), curious people 😉, not well compacted pavement (@prettyboyjack), gorgeously natural models (@sofiayuu), and famous celebrities who walk into steak houses (#noticemesenpai).
❤ Only the best to be my best friend 😊 . . . 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 Sayaka is truly one of a kind, the epitome of what a hard working loving human being should be like. We met in chem lab together and her positive aura made me gravitate towards her despite being in such a cold environment (lol Latimer). She brought this undeniably loving and welcoming vibe each time she went to class, and everyone around her and afar loves her. She can write award winning speeches in just hours. Her vocal cords were crafted by angels. Her hospitality must be Southern ... she is from the Southern part of East Asia (Hong Kong) ... haha. She earned a HUGE grant not too long ago to do a humanitarian project in Vietnam (teaching skills for those with special needs). Sayaka brings together people from all walks of life and all countries in the world at @ihouseberkeley. She overcomes obstacles like an Olympic hurdle runner, and comes out of anything still smiling and bringing joy and love to the world. . Oh dang. I'm tearing up just from gratitude to this woman right here . . I think that's a sign I should save her other amazing attributes for another post ... when we are reunited again. . Time and distance differences are nothing to us. We find each other in spite of any physical obstacles. . . Sayaka, you are worth every effort. . I love you, best friend . . 🌟
🍑 Meet Jenny, the most humble badass I know! 🍑 . . . You won't believe all of her accomplishments so I won't blow your mind on Instagram by listing them. But I'll just say she can fly in the air with weapons, lift record weight, rip non-Uniqlo pants with her muscles, make everyone love the color pink, stick needles in you, make your blood flow properly, train you to become the very best, all while being incredibly caring, hilarious, and humble. She doesn't even need to flex on people bc she is just way too accomplished at such a young age. She thinks she's old BUT YOU'RE NOT omgah. . . Go check out her gym @99barbell, get fixed by her at @tupuncture, and honestly just be humble like her, @j3nsthetics. . . Getting chubby cute boba with you was so stress relieving. You are worth driving through 2.5 hrs of traffic hahaha. ❤🍑❤
🔱 Louie the samoyed!!! Makes my heart flutter ⚪ ---- what a ball of white fluff! ° ° ° Sway fact #23: I LOVE SAMMIES. They make my anxiety go away because they are so docile to humans when they're chilling and they're a huge fluff where I can hug them without them escaping my embrace LOL. ________________________________________________ I once traveled 1 hour to wash my friend's samoyed bc I was so depressed from work. August 7. A day I'll never forget. It was the day after I failed my ABO test bc I was in the ER twice for a total of 10 hours the week prior. I was having meltdowns DAILY. 2-3 per day. I was diagnosed July 30, 2018. 1st time being a patient in a hospital! August 6 was my test in SF. Boy, did I NOT want to take it. My original mentor quit before she trained me fully. Then my next mentor was racist and not great at his optical job. He is a good human being but inadequate at training me properly. Plus, we were short staffed bc my manager was greedy despite us being a wealthy optometry practice. Anyways. Aug 6 was also the first day I self harmed (after I got my FAILED score). Aug 7 I was fired while on this medical leave. 🌸 So, I'm suing them. 🌸 @mentalhealthistrending #mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#mentalhealthistrending#swaywithsushi#sushisway#sushi#sway#ucberkeleyalum#calgrad#asianamerican#chineseamerican#bipolar#bipolardisorder#liveyourbestlife#liveinthemoment#samoyeds#selfcarenotselfharm#corgicon#corgibeachday#sammies#doglover#wanderlust