Ok so I've been really hesitant of sharing this but @hypeman_55 is very persuasive and persistent. Picture 1 is 3 months sober and picture 2 is two weeks ago. 3 months sober me hated life because that's when being sober got really hard. I struggled to stay sober because months 3-6 I really wanted nothing more than to drink. I was an asshole and not the fun one everyone's come to love. Not to mention a few months later I was about to leave everything that was comfortable and start something new. Well...... Funny how life changes 24 months later. I'm still sober by the grace of #god I found my life's calling in #ministrylife and I've lost a significant amount of weight both physically and mentally. I guess the best way to end this is by quoting the greatest golfer of all time Chubbs Peterson. “We've only just begun" #nevertoolatetochange#newchapter#sober#soberliving#jesus
Day off day job becomes a morning of working on #dearkin. It's a book of letters that I have written to my future kids about life and being human. I started it back in January with the idea that I would be able to keep up a pace of 12 hours a week! . . Uh. Well, since I do have a full time job, and a life, and lots of #selfcare to do, that didn't exactly pan out. Especially since I started living my life #sober, and as a #creative and #writer sober! . . What a shift! It's been a blessing to be able to see what is really there in my life and not what is hidden. . . I have about 143 letters to complete. I know some might not make it for this project and that is ok. I am about 35% finished. I am proud of my consistent efforts to get an hour in here and there, and power through longer work blocks. . It's a blessing I never could understand to be a #soberwriter. When I went through the #artistsway, a guide to blocked artists by @juliacameronlive, she talked about that as a choice that gave her an incredible connection to her Self and creativity. When your connection to your Self is severed, of course it's scary! . . And totally worth it.
I was thrown out of the church to establish who in my marriage needed protection, and who was sick. Excommunicated to keep the church clean from the unrepentant. ~ It hurts to be rejected by the people I once thought of as my closest friends, *and* I accept that they were and are doing what they believe is right and good. I was a confusing, manipulative, fearful man. I was addicted to alcohol and deeply over-attached to my wife—blaming her for being cold when I was demanding connection to save me from my pain. I was angry and resentful. I hid from light because I feared being tossed away by the people I loved. ~ It turns out that the only way for me to face that fear was to experience it. To be tossed. I lost my marriage. I lost the everyday relationship with my children. I lost the woman I wanted to love and be loved by. I lost my best friends. I lost my community. I lost my faith—the scaffolding of all my sense of self. I lost my home. I lost my sense of being. ~ There is no greater gift anyone has ever received. Thank you for ripping everything away. There in the black emptiness of loss I could only be what I am—nothing more. I am a program. A body encoded by a 37 year story of stress, fear, response, on repeat. One breath at a time, one line at a time, I am rewriting, and reparenting my code—not alone, but with a God made of the people who have suffered and survived. ~ This is my Easter.
I did it! I ate an entire case of mangos! (Minus the two I gave away) Thank you, everyone, for all of your support during this delicious time in my life. Special thanks to the few who really listened to me talk about mangos A LOT over the past few days, it couldn't have been easy.
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It seems mad that a few weeks ago I was wearing leggings and long sleeve tops on my runs and now I’m rocking an 80s sweatband ‘cos it’s that hot, but here we are! * Today’s run was longer than normal and I felt good. Better than good. You simply can’t beat the sun shining down and the beautiful views when running in the countryside. * Happy bank holiday Monday!
Congratulations to our alumna Victoria on celebrating 1 year of recovery today! You are an inspiration to women in recovery. Thank you for sharing your story! “Charlford House saved my life and taught me how to live. I stayed at Charlford for 4 1/2 months, I relapsed at 8 months and it took me 8 long months to get clean again. With the tools I learned at Charlford House and the love and support, I've made it to a year. I haven't been clean and sober this long since I was 13! I'm 32. So freaking happy! I love my life! Below is a photo of me in addiction and now.” Victoria #charlfordhouse#recovery#wedorecover #charlfordhousecelebratesrecovery #sober#soberlife#addictionrecovery#womeninrecovery#recoveryhouse#sobriety#soberlifestyle#drugfree