If something is out of balance, it is the only bad that can exist. Everything else is just subjective. So for instance, if there is something that can be looked at objectively and seen by all people as bad, it is most likely out of balance. If not, it is just another subjective thought. Take this as an example: dark humor. Some people will disagree and dislike dark humor, and view it as bad. That's not because it is actually bad, but its because of their own personal experiences. Something that is objectively bad would be more like mass murder and exploitation of any being, which will also directly effect the environment and the beings living in that environment; their behavior, moods, actions. We are all products of our environment after all so when you take in or are exposed to that type of suffering or cruelty, your actions will most likely reflect that type of energy. It's not even spiritual and that deep a thought as I'm sure science explains this somehow, someway also. . . . . #summer#summerenergy#summertime#night#summerrain#spiritual#spirituality#animals#vegan#veganism#justsomethoughts#rambles#rambling#rain#rainynights#rainydays#mywriting#mythoughts#balance#perspective
I can’t tell you the difference in life when you spend your time doing something you love. If you don’t believe me, tell me again how much you dread going to work, or how much you’d wish you could be doing x y z. Life shouldn’t be that way, maybe it’s time to close a door that’s been holding you back and maybe it’s time to just leap at what you’ve always wanted to do. There will be challenges, set backs, times when you want to quit, people will question you, doubt you, and probably laugh at you. But take it from me that still gets all of the above, there is NOTHING quite as fulfilling as doing something you love. I still have a long road to go, but the opportunity to work in the field I love wouldn’t have opened up if I didn’t take a leap and a risk.
That first picture was Dec 20, 2013. We had a whirlwind twenty four hours in the city. Went up the Empire State Building, but ended up delayed a few floors down. Long story short, I miscarried. That second picture was Dec 17, 2018. Weird how when I saw the building again, immediately had a lump in my throat and stomach. I’ve felt in a weird in between since. Probably because I tried to deal with humor, and never spoke much out loud about it. This is the only time I’ll mention it publicly, but it’s mainly for myself I think it’s therapeutic to let it go. 🧡 #rambles#personal#onward
It’s been a rough week. Between my grandpa dying, I got in a car accident last night, and then got my car stuck again today and am going to have to pour a lot of money into my car. I’m just a wreck right now and I just want to sleep #rambles
A few reminders... + you don’t need to have it all figured out. The next chapter will align itself in time. + when your thoughts become negative or overwhelming seek nature. Breath it in. Ground yourself. + only have time for light. If it doesn’t leave you with joy & feeling positive, you don’t have time for it! No sense in wasting your energy on things that don’t fill you. 🖤🌞✨
Slept until 11am. Nice. When sitting down on the bus yesterday, I kind of tripped and fell into the seat. Not a bench seat. My hip hit hard on the seat divider. Now I have a bruise on steroids. A hematoma. It is raised, is hotter than the rest of my skin, and hurts like a mother forker. Went to dinner last night with my family to celebrate my sister's and niece's birthday. It was nice. This weekend I'm going to need to study for my first test in math. We can make a page of notes to use on the exam, thank goodness. BUT if we DO NOT use the notes we get a 10% bump in our test grade. SO TORN! We do have the option to have the notes in our bag and only grab them if we need them. I'm going for this option with the knowledge that I am totally going to grab the notes because my brain resembles this image. All.....the.....time. the information is there, I can grasp a bit of the procedure, but ultimately my brain changes focus and it starts thinking about HAMBERDERS. Living with ADD is like opening my grandma's jewelry box. I'm pulled to so many pretty bits and sparkles, not seeing the entirety of a piece before looking at another shiny thing. It's overwhelming and beautiful and frustrating because all of the pieces are knotted together with dozens of chains and beaded necklaces. If you pick up a broach the entire mass of jewelry comes with it. But, in its own way, it's absolutely beautiful and there are connections made that may not be obvious to most. #add#attentiondeficitdisorder#school#rambles#math#found#foundphotos#fakedoubleexposure#doubleexposure#foundslides#familyphoto#vernacular#vintageslides#snapshot#foundsnapshots
Is my giant green juice over doing it? Not with a toddler and in this weather. I think its really important to remember people’s Instagram / Facebook / social media (including mine) is such a small snippet of our life and generally you are walking in at a certain chapter, I get it! It’s hard not too compare yourself to their chapter / story / image, but try to remember there was a before and there will be an after. For example before I had green juice, I had chocolate and after this cute pic with my girl I had a meltdown because the stray cat Milana has homed pee’d all over our bed 😩 but in all seriousness, when it comes to any area of your life, no one else is better or worse, we are all on a journey. Be inspired by others but let it stop there, they aren’t perfect no matter what they say, or social media shows.
Side bangs?? I used to have side bangs but I grew em out Kinda want forehead bangs? Fuck Today was fun at first but then went kinda eh towards the end but I'll be fine I have therapy tmrw and I can tell him aaalll about it In the break room there are literally box cutters everywhere and you bet I had thoughts for a bit but nonetheless I persisted so that is good Very good indeed I had coffee but purged it so will the caffeine? Affect me still?? I hope not I actually want to sleep tonight If I can't sleep I'll end up drawing prob Will post a pic of the stuff I got at the antique shop tmrw Ramble over #selfies#rambles#vent
Thursday's Things: *I've allowed myself to fall behind in geography class. Mostly because it's completely online, so it doesn't feel real for some reason. * Thankfully insomnia didn't hang on too long, I slept well last night although my face tells a different story. * Chatted with a friend who was the best man in our wedding on the phone last night. That was really nice. He lives far away and I miss him so much. * I've been stuck on a math problem because we have not covered how to do it. We covered the information right up to the problem and class dismissed. GAH!!!! I need answers! * Sigh.... I should get out of bed and put on pants..... Today feels like a stretchy pants and dress kind of day. AKA clothes that look like I put effort into my appearance but feel like I'm wearing pajamas. #sleepy#tired#thursday#rambles#things
in my palm i consumed beauty, sadness, laughter, tension & patience, conversation, weather that bore down, those who forgot, those who knew too well, those at my same level, and those behind me. i ate novels, paintings, lectures, lovers, unhealthily & often. i was a virgin canvas picking through the hues. i did not know much of anything.
So it seems You haunt my dreams My mind, my heart My soul condemns Only what I unintentionally started but I knew that if it continued We’d both end up broken-hearted, so I Said it’d be best if our ways simply parted. So it appears I am full of regret- No, not regret Not now, not yet, No, not ever- For I have nothing to regret I only realized the truth And it’s something you didn’t get, but You don’t know how much I try to forget... It feels like a dream, something strange something loud Like being noticed in and amongst a suffocating crowd. So they say Love has its way But hear when i say It wasn’t love, it wasn’t the way, you Sent me askew, clambering around- I hardly knew you, yet you took my feet off the ground Simply by the assurance that I had been found. So now I’m alone That’s what I wanted, right? Yes it’s what I wanted but what I got was A thousand nights of toil and trouble Tossing and turning watching the cauldron bubble Hearing the whispers, the taunts and the sin “What if?” They ask me “what if? What then?” Shut the heck up, I made my choice it’s What needed to happen- It needed to happen... So then. Why is there pain? Why is there hurt? Why do I question my decisioned discernment when I know i did what’s right... I didn’t ask for this fight. Why must i feel pain... Why did you see me first...... I can’t blame this on you For I too am Someone searching to be loved In places love ought not to be sought. • • #poetry#writing#love#notlove#emotions#rambles#thoughts#spokenpoetry#art#read#experience
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