I have never posted a picture of myself on here until now. My father lost his life to an aggressive form of cancer yesterday after battling it for over two years and I have a story to tell you. This cancer started in his colon and may have been prevented if he got an colonoscopy done years ago. Eventually it spread to his liver. He was inoperable with golf ball size tumors on his liver before and they reduced in size to the point he was operable again. Shortly after the surgery it spread through his whole body. 1 and 22 men are diagnosed with colon cancer. As you see in the picture my dad holding a piece of bread with cannabis oil on it, while holding a smile to take a picture with his son three days before his body shutdown and he stopped breathing. At this point he had tumors and cancer all through his body. The hospice nurse and family members that witnessed this first hand agrees, cannabis oil was the only thing that truly extended his life and was effective in comforting him in his last days. All the pharmaceutical drugs were ineffective compared to cannabis and cannabis oil. The morphine in the end, only provided restlessness and pain in his sleep for 45 mins at a time and he would want to get up. I’d give him the oil and within 5 minutes he was in the most peaceful sleep you ever seen him in for hours. A half a gram of oil a time provided up to 4 hours of peaceful pain free sleep and even his breathing would improve. I was on his side as end of life palliative care through it all and i administered him this oil all the way up to his last hours on earth even when he couldn’t swallow, by putting it on his gums and rubbing his cheeks. He taught me things even in his dying days and I’m truly grateful I was able to be there for him and comfort him when he needed it the most. I can ensure you that other people’s lives will be extended and die more peacefully because of him. He has inspired me to do great things long before this. May he Rest In Peace!!
Dad, I remember the day you asked if I would keep your wedding ring as a memento, a means to remember you by. It seemed morbid at first, the thought of losing you. But, now, I think of you when I wear it and can genuinely say that I’ll carry you with me always. The battle is over. Rest In Peace, pops. The love remains. . . . #inlovingmemory#father#als#alsawareness#loveyoudad
About a month ago I decided to put this pic of my Dad in my car as he can have eyes on me always🙏💙. Today marks three months my Dad has gone to heaven. It's truly hard to say how it feels without him. Losing the first man I knew how to love is truly hard to absorb as the days go on the reality of him not being around. Then I think of what my dad would want and he wouldn't want pain in our eyes. My babies show me that daily. That dollar behind my Dads pic was placed by my Jakey who giggled as he placed it said it's for Grandpa so he has money 😊 The innocence of a child that was my baby trying to cheer me up and now the dollar will remain with my Dads pic... its the little things 💜 #loveyoudad#anotherday#heavenislucky#kissesyourway#weallmissyou#yourbinagirl
So today is our last full day and tomorrow night we make our way home! I can honestly say hand on heart as I sit here in 100 degree Florida sunshine with tears in my eyes this is the best holiday I’ve ever had x we don’t want to come home, we don’t want reality to hit us, this picture is of us at our happy place and the only thing that is missing is the main reason we are here, my daddy x we have missed him on this trip it brought back so many memories and makes us grateful for every day, 6 and a half years without him and it doesn’t get easier x so cherish every day because with all our near deaths in this family and the losses we do appreciate and love each other so very much xx #peacockneilsquires#family#hairandthebear#florida2018#loveyoudad
My favorite Aunt passed away this morning. She and my dad had a falling out some years ago and just recently started to reconnect and now she’s gone. Lost time is just that, lost. If you have relationships that need work do it now, you never know what a day will bring. #auntmarie#loveyoudad 🙏🏽💕
Everytime I see this empty bench, it reminds me of someone missing in my life. It is a painful reminder of his absence because he is in heaven right now. (This bench is located in the hospital where he died years ago) To my Dad, even though you are no longer with me, I will always remember the valuable lessons in life you taught me. And no matter where life leads me, I'll always remember you with love. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. And if I have my wish on Father's day today, I would love to hear your voice and see your smile again. Or just sit and talk to you on this bench specially at this point in my life when I needed you the most. #fathersday#emptybench#loveyoudad