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I felt defenseless against my own fear brain.  I felt mad that the way I wanted things to work out after some big hard earned events, was not the way things turned out.  I felt grief.  I felt angry at myself for putting me in a place where I felt vulnerable.  I felt angry that after all the work I've done, hard long work in therapy and on my own, suddenly it would seem that I had done nothing.  I felt like I needed to shake things up.  So yesterday I publically admitted to some not so good mental stuff, not all.  I want to say yes and lay back and allow all the helping hands to support to hold me up. I feel joyful that I have a community and mad that I can't see me the way you see me.  I feel a bit overwhelmed and burdened by all the offers of support.  I feel the need to clarify, to say I'm good now, I'm on my way to my professional peoples to figure this out. I just need a boost over the edge. It was a spell not an attack.  But in the end, it is how I feel that I paid attention to and brought me to make a next step decision. It's a two steps forward, one step back kinda life.  I had some pretty bad post partum with Eamon 13 years ago and not so bad with Fiona. But it's their mental health that I want to add and model my positive self-esteem to. So I keep on keepin' on. .  #navigatingthroughnovember #taleswithfriends #anxietydoesntgettodrive #beherenow #fionamariepeach #eamonspancerpeach #mywisdomlessons #soul_selfie
Ah Halloween! I am a devotee to your fanfare and ritual.  A costume parade at school, pumpkin carving, her dark princess costume (so lovely), our traditional first trick or treat to our neighbors house, and an hour's worth of trick or treating to fill the pumpkin bucket up. We ended the night by watching second Night at the Museum movie. So fun! Swipe right to left to see them all. .  #trickortreat #halloween #fionamariepeach #kidsofinstagram #sassafras #taleswithfriends #midlifemama #creativemamas #storyofmyday #gingershavemorefun
After a ten hour travel day, we returned home last night. Our kids and our cats are all happy to see us. And I'm sitting in my comfy chair breathing in the fresh air coming in and listening to the honks of geese and twittling of birdsong. .  It's good to go away if only to come home and appreciate what you have. .  #homeagain #fionamariepeach #taleswithfriends #beherenow
Selfie perspective. I wrote, "When you believe you are of value, that you can bring perspective and value to the world, it feels good. When you don't, it feels bad.  The pain of the hopeless child is palpable. Yet we continue to treat our inner children in the same way as we perceived our parents did. They must have treated us with disregard and dishonor because we deserved it." I honor myself as hard as I can that Fiona may emulate and understand her inherent worth. .  I'm the most Prolific Blogger You are Not Reading. That's the title of my post today. Follow the link in my profile to find out why at Shalavee.com. .  #taleswithfriends #fionamariepeach #blogger #ontheblog #selfworth #selfdevelopment #selfawareness #mywisdomlessons #soul_selfie #writersofig #emotionalintelligence #midlifemom
Family fun day at Fifer Farms. There's always a day in mid-October when the kids are off school. And we come here to get our Fall yayas out. Sliding, bouncing, peddling, rolling, and zipping. But Fiona's favorite activity is these water pumps to race the duck down the water pipe flume. She is such a water loving pisces. Do you see her grin? .  #fionamariepeach #fallfun #fiferfarms #easternshoreofmaryland #familyplaydate #storyofmyday #redheads #gingershavemorefun
Because we both needed some exercise, we walked to the park and had a playtime picnic. I was keenly aware of Fiona's need for mastery. How she kept pushing a little more to see what she could do. Hanging upside down, hooking those feet into the bars. And then was so pleased with herself. .  I admire her for this. She can be fearful in some ways but this monkey bar climbing was fearless stuff. Inspirational . We are always learning from these little ones if we are paying attention. . . On the blog, Thoughts on Mindfulness : Doing vs. Being . An interesting conversation. Link in my profile to my blog at Shalavee.com.  #ontheblog #monkeybars #fionamariepeach #taleswithfriends #moremindfulmoments #mywisdomlessons #
Worry for #moremindfulmoments ... I felt this way by the end of the day yesterday. What began as an "anything is possible" kind of day, became a series of duties performed and a dwindling amount of time to do the very hard things I'm in hope of finishing. I was deflated and dissatisfied. . .  It's me again. Wanting to do the perfect thing and not knowing what I'm doing . Paralysis and perfection and a final feeling of failure. I hate this hamster wheel and I want to be done. . .  So I'm daring myself to do it all differently. Exercise in the afternoon. Give myself a deadline. Type at the library. Get the lesser challenge done to inspire work on the bigger. Anything changed is a change! . .  Wish me luck! .  #fionamariepeach #taleswithfriends #selfdiscovery #emotionalintelligence #selfcompassion #gingershavemorefun
#emotions for #moremindfulmoments .  This is her 'wary of elevator' face. She was so terrified of them as a baby, we had to desensitize her to them during a hotel vacation stay when she was two. .  Living her life with her is an emotional rollercoaster. She's always unsure how to regulate her reactions. She has no concept of when or enough when she's wounded. .  I am more and more aware that feelings can often lead my life script too. I watch as the Feeling & Thought & Action cycle can quickly play out in the wrong direction as feelings are confused as fact. So my pledge is to allow a beat to play out and ask why. Why am I feeling this way or why is that person acting that way? .  Neither fear nor emotions should be allowed to operate my life's elevator. .  #fionamariepeach #emotionalintelligence #selfdevelopment #selfawareness #mywisdomlessons #soul_selfie #writersofig #unicorn
Music is immensely important to us. And It is who Eamon is.  He is innately a musician. At 13, he is accomplished in piano and bass clarinet and is giving a go of the stand-up bass! .  My son's test scores are through the roof because he's just smart. We don't send him to a private school because of the marvelous music teacher he has now. The man is a gift to every kid whom he has ever taught. .  I encourage you to thank the teachers who make this kind of difference in your kids' lives that you truly appreciate. And the ones that changed your life too. Thank them because it's often a thankless job. . .  #eamonspencerpeach #fionamariepeach #taleswithfriends #musicman #kidsofinstagram #siblings #beherenow #mywisdomlessons
Knowing Myself Will Connect Me to You. That is my truth and the title of today's blog post. "Building self-esteem is like building something from air sometimes. You take it on faith that you need to and that it will work if you keep working it but it's an act of faith." A short sweet read with cute pictures, as always. Link to my blog at Shalavee.com in my profile! .  @bymeeni  I hear Ya' loud and clear  I've got three years on you and my word of the year, "submit", never inspired me to do so. I'm deadly fearful of the rejections and criticisms. I know my writing isn't crap but I don't feel like I'm adult enough or know enough. .  #selfie #fionamariepeach #taleswithfriends #selfdiscovery #selfdevelopment #selfesteem #emotionalintelligence #growthmindset #selfleadership  @drumsinger what I was saying about the little old cat is in this piece
Our weekend vacation hotel had a heated pool! Paid heck trying to get Fiona out! Made it home at 4pm.today and felt the happy perspective shift that one gets after being away for 24 hours! #fionamariepeach #eamonspencerpeach  #familygetaways #holidayinnharrisburgeast #childrenofinstagram #taleswithfriends
Ah Gratitude. I can tell you I'm profoundly grateful for the support I received from my community when the chips were down last week. For @danielleldarling fixing my site when it got eaten by a viagra ad  For my friends @pyellie showing up to celebrate my birthday and my children @whipped_peach for being sweet and healthy and creative. . .  But I'm also grateful for just being here. For not having been taken out of this beautiful world by any of the people I made bad choices with or by the drugs I took. Grateful I am healing from my traumatic childhood and am lucky enough to have a therapist who gets me. For the food in my fridge all of which I didn't grow or pay for. And for the ability to post words I want to say unedited out into the interwebs. .  Thank you life. . . .  #breatheseptember #beherenow #mindfulness #taleswithfriends #fionamariepeach #writersofig #kidsofinstagram
That I love these two souls with all my heart is a no brainer. But the part where they helped me to love me is the unforeseen part of the equation.  #breatheseptember2018  #taleswithfriends #eamonspencerpeach #fionamariepeach# #kidsofinstagram
The beauty I grew from seed. Were I to disparage my gardening skills, I can just gaze on this natural wonder and know my grace. . . "FEEL YOUR TRUTH AND SPREAD IT WIDE". On the blog today, thoughts on how we as women subjagate ourselves and what I do and don't want to model for my wee sassafras gal. Link in my profile to the piece titled A Woman's Worth on Shalavee.com. . .  #breatheseptember2018 #liveyourtruth #ontheblog #togetherwerise #mywisdomlessons #taleswithfriends #fionamariepeach #backyardshennanigans
Going gently into my 52nd year today with a brunch at our favorite diner and a date with a playground for Fiona. Slowly I roll, into this new phase but I am fully prepared to be kinder and gentler to myself. Compassionate for the changes that are happening.  #breatheseptember2018 . .  #fionamariepeach #kidsofinstagram #birthday #storyofmyday #beherenow #overthehill #midlifemama #mywisdomlessons #soul_selfie
How do you know Joy? It shows.  Our whirlwind daylong beach trip to Ocean City, Maryland in the beginning of August begat sunburns but much joy. #breatheseptember2018 . .  Every day we live and engage in our lives, all that we read, and people that we meet, they all affect us. Change us, make us into who we need to be next. I ponder this on my blog today at Shalavee.com. Link in my profile. . .  #taleswithfriends #eamonspencerpeach #fionamariepeach #oceancitymaryland #beachmemories #ontheblog #writersofig #kidsofinstagram
Listen for #augustbreak2018 / I listened to myself yesterday. Really really listened and what I heard behind and beyond that chattering resistance was Fear. Always. And so I asked what were the words. And my shadow child self said she was afraid she'd fail. And I gave her/myself the compassion I deserved. I assured her this was a possibility but so was achievement. And I felt better. . . . .  #mywisdomlessons #soul_selfie #taleswithfriends #intuition #emotionalintelligence #selfdevelopment #innerwisdom #eamonspencerpeach #fionamariepeach #playground #martinakstatepark
#comfort for #breatheseptember2018 .  While it's still raining outside, we're snuggling up indoors. Trying to keep the kids off the screens is somewhat difficult. The house smells of the pot of chili cooking. While I make these moments matter with manicures and movies with all piled onto the couch, I'm kinda looking forward to getting back into my brain zone and working out my work next week. And counting down this last week until my birthday. . . .  #taleswithfriends #eamonspencerpeach #fionamariepeach #siblings #beherenow #taleofmyday #kidsofinstagram #weekend #snuggle
Do you have a definition of success or one for enough? I considered what mine are in my blog post today titled With No Definition of Success Or Enough, You’re a Hamster on a Wheel . . . "Having sweet smart healthy independent children feels like success to me...But what of enough? Or will whatever you have always be enough?" . .  Do you feel like your standards need to be lowered? Like you're missing an end point which will sum your efforts up?  A link to my brief and thought provoking blog post at  Shalavee.com in my bio. . . .  #ontheblog #enough #fionamariepeach #taleswithfriends #soul_selfie #mywisdomlessons #writersofig #writingmyselfhome
First Day of Kindergarten! (She already has one year of pre-K bus riding under her belt) 💜 😉 💜 I feel relieved and slightly untethered as my children go off to school today. As much as I've been giddy and gleeful at the thought of this day coming, I'm anticipatory that this means I have to buckle down and get serious about my own work. Enter the nerves around visibility and vulnerability..........................So be it. Gonna meditate on some Loving Kindness each day. Swipe right to left to see Fiona get on the bus. . . . . .  #breatheseptember2018  #taleswithfriends #carolinecountymaryland #fionamariepeach #backtoschool #soul_selfie #mywisdomlessons

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