Vegan creamed spinach (made with coconut cream), onions and mushrooms with some sautéed tofu and cauliflower :) 💪🥗 Anyone else love creamed spinach? 🙈 Things have still been tough. My doctors are telling me to eat no less than 2,500 calories a day, and even more if I keep exercising. I am already finding it a struggle to eat 2,000. I see all these posts online (I know it’s just social media) of “1.200 weight loss plans” or “what I eat in a day” and it’s like 1,400 cals. I then get really upset knowing that I am eating over 2000! I went grocery shopping at the market today and had one too many samples of banana bread. I then immediately went home to do a second run for the day to try and burn off the “unplanned” calories. This disorder makes you so messed up things... for example, on Tuesday I have an appointment at 9:30, I could subway and be there in 15min, but I already know I will be making myself walk the extra hour to fit in more exercise... my steps are now at 30,000 minimum... with my running and my job. It’s crazy... and I feel as though 2,500 cals is too much for me. #eatingdisorderawareness#eatingdisorderrecovery#bulimiarecovery#anorexia#bulimia#recovery#eatingdisorter#motivation#dinner#food#tofu#fitness#health#nutrition#spinach#protein#calories#macros
Don’t be a butthole to yourself! You will be in your body with your brain your entire life, it is time to make peace. Think about this, looking outward for validation, praise, & acceptance puts your esteem in the hands of others! How the freak is that any kind of life?! We have to take our self-respect into our own hands. Look inside and practice fining value. DECIDE with each small moment you are worthy, even if you don’t believe it. You can decide whatever beliefs you developed earlier in your life telling you otherwise no longer serve you! You can begin to LOVE, VALIDATE, & ACCEPT yourself every time you offer self compassion and meet your needs. . Relying on external praise is much like a hit of drugs. You get a rush of dopamine and temporarily feel like the bomb. But it crashes bc it’s temporary! Then you’re left hustling for another temporary fix. STOP DOING SELF ESTEEM DRUGS! Gently and lovingly start to build a belief system that says “I AM WORTHY AND ENOUGH.” . Wanna know how to start —> head over to Tiffanyroe.com for my courses, podcast, newsletter, counseling services, consulting, and events ♥️🧠✨ #therapythoughts#selfesteem
Sometimes just being healthy enough to be able to train is a blessing in of itself. • Trying to remind myself to keep physiological health at the forefront for sustainability, even if it doesn’t get me instantly where I think I should be and even if it takes a bit of time🙂
OVERWEIGHT ? Your brain is really the number one responsible for the #eatingdisorder, #cravings, #overeating, #obsession, #addiction#obesity, #mood #emotions. Neuroplasticity, or brain plasticity, refers to the brain's ability to CHANGE throughout life. The human brain has the amazing ability to reorganize itself by forming new connections between brain cells, in addition to everything else that happens in your life. You can use it for the best if you know exactly what to do. So every thought, behaviors, habit, emotions can be changed. As well as more amazing things happen when you know how to use it for the best. Let me teach you to remove those all patterns while making positive changes. @brainbodycoach promoting health and well-being. #loseweightfast#overweight
I’ve survived 100% of my bad days. I’ll survive this one, too. — Should I label it as a “bad day”, or are there certain things about the day that were negative that I’m letting cloud the rest of the day? Honestly, I’d say today was a bad day. I had a really tough spring break with interviews, overtime, anxiety on the roads, watching my dream school become less and less of a reality, my car getting towed and having to spend what I budgeted for three weeks of groceries to pay for that, and there was some problem with insurance/the pharmacy so I’ve been off my meds cold turkey for ten day. Withdrawal is HORRID, and I ended up going and paying full price for the drugs today so that I can get back to where I was just so shortly ago; happy; stable. I called off work for the second time in my life today because I’ve been faint, nauseous, ill, too tired but insomniac, have a headache, and didn’t have one day “off” this break. I don’t have groceries because literally nothing sounds appealing. And I’m dreading the fact that I’m going to have to become more focused on getting back on track with food. In other words, I’m scared because I know that soon my appetite will be back full force and I’m going to have to honor that hunger even if it’s more than what I would typically eat. I’m trying to practice self care even when I’m so incredibly upset with myself and my life. I’m about to shower for the first time in 4-5 days, I’m going to finally take all my meds, and go to bed early. There definitely have been positives in my life over break, but I think I’m going to allow myself to say that overall, it was a bad time. But that’s okay. #baddaysbuildbetterdays and there are certainly better days to come. It’s not wrong to label times as bad from time to time. Sometimes life just sucks. And that’s that. But I believe that life is just a series of waves. Ups and downs. Storms and calm. So, better times are to come. Ride the wave,
Comment below if you have ever utilized a hunger and fullness scale while eating 👇🏼👇🏼 . Using this tool can be extremely beneficial when you first begin your journey into intuitive eating. . So how does it work? . Before you begin eating, just take a moment to look at this scale and determine how you feel. . During your meal, take a few breaths and mindfully ask yourself how you are feeling in this moment. . Getting in touch with your body allows you to trust yourself and determine how much energy you need. . The best part? . This is all done WITHOUT the diet. No calorie counting, no macro counting, no restrictions, and no elimination of food groups.
Dear Sloane.... I’m sorry for constantly putting you down, telling you how much of a failure you were...for picking apart your body & pointing out all your flaws, for making you feel insignificant & worthless, for always making you the lowest priority, for trying to change you, for not giving you love, compassion & understanding when you needed it the most, I’m sorry I was so blinded I couldn’t see you for who you really were....thank you for never giving up on me despite the way I treated you, thank you for forgiving & trusting me enough to give me a chance to show you what you really mean to me....to show you real, pure, overwhelming, unconditional love like nobody has ever shown you before...for allowing me to believe in you, I promise you I will never let you down again, you are more than enough, you always were & always will be...Love Sloane xxx❤️ • • • • • • #youareenough#youareworthyofmore#loveyourselffromtheinsideout#myjourneyneverends#nevergiveuponyou#eatingdisorderrecovery #depression#ocd#suicideawareness #selflove#liveyourbestlifenow#childhoodemotionalneglect #thenextchapter#theuniversealwayshasyourback#inspireothers#thislifeisnotjustaboutyou #keepgivinglove
I have heard this question and variations of it MANY times. I have sometimes had the question pointed toward me. Discussing privilege is certainly worth doing when these questions arise, especially as a clinician in a smaller body. SO grateful to @with_this_body for collating this list - these are CRITICAL to undermining disordered thinking! 🙏🏻❤️ . . . #repost @with_this_body (@get_repost) ・・・ “But why am I gaining weight if I’m recovering?” “Is he better at recovery than I because he’s smaller?” I hear some version of this a lot from folks. A few things: 1) Eating Disorders come in all shapes and sizes. You cannot tell if a person has one by looking at their body. Recovery also comes in all shapes and sizes. 2) Recovery is not a race or a competition and it looks different for each person. 3) Your body has a sense of where it wants to be. There are many things that go into this but the 2 biggest are genetics and socioeconomic status. Privilege and access also play a big role in this. Years of chronic/yo-yo dieting or restriction of any kind leads to a higher set point over time. This is not a failure but your body’s resilient and adaptive way of avoiding starvation. 4) Thinness or conventionally-attractive appearance or size are NOT signs of recovery. 5) You are not *worse* or less impressive at recovery because your body is bigger than someone else in recovery. 6) You are not less deserving of listening to your hunger cues because your body is bigger. 7) Your body is not a failure. Your existence is not a failure. Your recovery is not a failure. . . . . #eatingdisorderrecovery#eatingdisorders#edrecovery#recovery#endeatingdisorders#effyourbeautystandards#eatingdisorderawareness#prorecovery#bodyacceptance#bodywisdom#recovery#haes#healthateverysize#dietculture#edwarriors#begoodtoyourself#bekindtoyourself#fatphobia#sizeism#bodypositivity#fatstigma#fat#bodyposi#bopo#fatpositive#fatacceptance
3/25 So I'm honestly so shocked with myself today. My ed is like what have you done but my body is so happy. And my parents are proud. And I am proud;) Had my usual rushed Sunday breakfast of a nutrigrain(current obsession lol) and a big ol' cup of coffee before church. So because I eat very little bc of time restraints I'm pretty hungry by lunch. So for lunch a made a turkey pesto panini! I was still hungry after lunch and went to Barnes and Noble with some friends and got a chocolate chunk cookie which was amazing!🍪 But within a few minutes of eating that I knew something wasn't right. I was still hungry. And my hunger grew at a rapid rate. Soon I felt like I was starving, like I haven't eaten in many, many hours. I truly think I had extreme hunger bc I had just eaten a huge sandwich and a huge cookie. But my body wanted more. So after our get together I went to work I used a free meal card and got a grilled cheese and chips! It was so scary eating that much food in that short amount of time, especially because of all the cheese and butter, because my mind was like noooo. But I needed that meal. I honestly felt so sick as I was driving to work bc I was so hungry. It was so weird but I'm happy I listened to my extreme hunger. I feel bloated but thats 100% normal and ok. Listening to my hunger cues now, no matter how weird and spontaneous they may be, will result in restored, normal hunger cues in the future! I have honestly had a very challenging weekend but it's been amazing! Going out with friends, eating 3 full meals plus snacks, and listening to my hunger would not have happened before recovery:) - #anorexia#anorexiaawareness#anorexianervosa#anorexiarecovery#anorexiawarrior#ed#eatittobeatit#eatingdisorderrecovery#eatingdisorderawareness#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderwarrior#neda#recoverywarrior#recovery#orthorexiarecovery#orthorexia
Hello friends! We will be meeting tomorrow, Monday 3/25 from 7-8 pm in Blair 213! This week we'll be talking about how self-talk can impact our state of mind and the intersection between eating disorders and trauma survival. We hope to see you there 💖
One of my favourite things about having a healthy body? Boobies. Breasts. Tits. Whatever you want to call them. Also my bottom, my peach, my behind. I’m not too keep on the rest of my body but I am working on it. When I want to tell people my story, whether that be on here or in life I can sometimes feel awkward. The people reading behind the screen will have judgements and perceptions that may be different from the ones I am attempting to create. Some people may think ‘poor girl’ but I do not want your sympathy. People who are still stuck in their mental illness and can be competitive may think ‘that’s nothing I’ve been way worse than that!’ But mental illnesses can not be compared because everybody’s experience is different and everyone’s pain in valid. Some people may think ‘here she goes again with the mental health stuff’ but you have to understand that my whole teenage years are filled with nothing but ‘mental health stuff’. Some people may take it for what it actually is; proof that you can recover. I have been there. I have seen, heard and felt. But I have fought and I am here. I will never tell you recovery is easy in fact it was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, but it is also the best thing I have done in my life. I want you to believe me when I tell you I was there, I was broken, sitting at the bottom of that black hole not even having energy to open my eye to see the light at the top. But now I am here and I am living and I am loving every second of it, both the ups and the downs. I’m not saying recovery is happiness, roses, Daisy’s and rainbows. It’s more like screaming, crying, relapsing, fighting, trying again and again and again whilst feeling like you are getting nowhere but suddenly one day you look up and there you are, outside in the real world. Walking your dog, doing grocery shopping, meeting friends, having tea with your family, cuddling cats when you catch yourself and realise you haven’t
It’s night now that I am writing this post 🌝, my boyfriend is sleeping next to me. I hear his calm breathing which has a calming affect on me too. I am awake because of the terrible nightmares I have, something which makes sleeping and nights in general extremely hard and scary (ever since I was a child, although it got worse over the years). I feel my ring on my finger, a ring me and my boyfriend both wear, as a symbol of our connection, our love and our embracement. My boyfriend helps me out so much, he helpes me to relax in my being. To no longer fight myself. To slow down. To actually live. To stop being so hard on myself. Something which helps me through the night too, is eating if I feel like it. It’s comforting and my body usually ask for food after not being able to sleep for a while after a nightmare (or not daring to fall asleep). I just had a bowl of pasta 🍝, and I am here to say that that is perfectly okay. Your body doesn’t have a 24 hour clock. We may all give ourselves what we feel like, whether that is physically/emotionally/mentally/spiritually. You don’t have to explain yourself, to yourself or to others. I find eating at night comforting, also if I already slept before and will fall asleep afterwards. I like the comfort and safeness that a satisfied belly gives me. Eating in the middle of the night used to be my biggest trigger to binge eat, but now it’s something which makes me feel better. And isn’t that what nourishing yourself is all about? About feeling good, satisfied, safe, and ‘at home’ in your body? Don’t fight yourself, just ride the wave.🧡
okay so today was good because i finished a whole restaurant meal! but also bad because my weight went down. i think it’s the scale because the battery is low but i’m still super nervous. also another problem, i only crave fruit. i want to challenge myself more, but the only thing my body wants is fruit, so i eat SO much of it. idk if this is disordered or if i’m just overthinking.. SOS #edrecovery#recovery#recoverywarrior#eatingdisorderrecovery#eatingdisordersupport#anorexiafighter
The best pictures aren’t the prettiest, most perfect ones — it’s the silly, unposed, cracking-up-full-of-joy pictures that truly capture the best moments 📸🤩 (& pro tip— you can only have these moments to capture when you stop worrying about looking small/thin/fit/perfect all the time 🥰)
I had a big bowl of veggies for my post workout dinner. I had cauliflower rice mixed with peas and protein greens. Then I topped it with mushrooms, parsnips, sweet potatoes, broccoli, salmon, and avocado tzaziki ☺️😌😍
There’s an expression in the therapy world; “you’re as sick as your secrets”. It’s not to say you need to dance your secrets out onto the street, it just means that it’s those untold things that we hold inside are often that which hurts us. Finding the right people to share those hidden things with can bring tremendous healing.
I'm so lucky to count Elizabeth Scott of @thebodypositive amongst my teachers, along with all of you out there unpacking the intersectionality of body politics daily on this platform and elsewhere. This framework, summarized in these words from Elizabeth's conversation with @chr1styharrison on Food Psych episode 160 informs so much of what I (humbly) strive to do for my clients and myself. I'm feeling grateful tonight for you, this community of teachers, healers, and activists—including my clients who let me join in their journeys home to themselves, as well as everyone following along throughout their own process. It's hard work, but I know the load feels a little lighter to me with the knowledge that we're all in it together. Wishing you all a restful evening and easy start to the week.💜
When we’re dieting our whole life goes on a diet. When we’re restrictive and rigid with food, we’re restrictive and rigid in other parts of our life. When we binge and purge food, we take on too much and then drop out on other things. Think relationships, work, commitments. When we’re judgmental of our body, we’re judgmental of other people and things. The relationship we have with food is a reflection of how we are in other facets of life. When we begin to repair our relationship with food, introduce more nuance, compassion, and acceptance we will begin to experience a more full, rich, and meaningful life. You know, all the false promises diet culture claims to make. Imagine how much time, energy, and brain space is left over when we’re not focused on calories, weight, and food. But as we know, a smaller body probably didn’t lead to a happier, fulfilling, and more successful life. Certainly not long term because it isn’t sustainable and never quite enough. I choose sanity and a bigger life. You deserve to live a life free from obsessing over the food you eat and fixated on how your body looks. Your purpose in life is probably not losing weight, you’re here for so much more than that.
My whole life seems to be falling apart But I’m gonna rebuild it piece by piece I’m official Katie Brooke the girl on fire I still fall on my face sometimes and I Can't color inside the lines 'cause I'm perfectly incomplete I'm still working on my masterpiece You haven’t seen the best of me people don’t Tell me who I am I tell them. I’m gonna fight. I’m gonna start over. Starting Tuesday I won’t be on here for a few weeks. I’m a fighter and I’m never gonna stop fighting. I was in a bad place and my demons took advantage of the state of mind I was in. but I’m fighting this. I’ll see yall. Join my live Monday it’s gonna be the last one for awhile. Thank you to all of you that stays by my side. and who never left me. Who doesn’t judge me and understands me. #eatingdisorderrecovery#beautiful#gorgeous#pretty#cute#staystrong#yourbeautiful#prayforkatie#model
If your recovery feels uncomfortable, that probably means you’re doing something right! One thing that I have learned in my own life over the past year is that sometimes we have to do the things that scare us in order to get where we are trying to go. I spent years of my life trying to avoid feeling uncomfortable, and it never got me anywhere closer to the things I wanted to accomplish. It’s no different in recovery. In fact, feeling that discomfort is a crucial part of the process. When you are trying to recover from an eating disorder, staying in your comfort zone not only isn’t helpful— it’s downright dangerous. Next time you find yourself avoiding something because it’s uncomfortable or anxiety-provoking, remind yourself that learning to sit with that discomfort is where we make progress. Feeling that discomfort won’t kill you. But if you have an eating disorder, staying in your comfort zone might.
Hey, do you know how to get a bikini body? Put a bikini on and head to the beach! It brings me so much joy that my kids love food as much as I do and also plan their whole day around food! If you’re a purely good is fuel person, I’m sorry but I just cannot relate. Food to me is nourishment, connection, comfort, memory, pleasure, engages all the senses, something that can bring us all together. I’m super grateful for ten years of ED recovery and for being able to take so much joy in food.
If I’m being honest, I am currently living a lot of my life right now fairly far outside my comfort zone and it is liberating, but it would be a huge stretch to say that I love my edges. I am learning to sit with the discomfort of my edges because I want to grow more than I want to be comfortable. So I’m pushing myself and I’m pretty tired. And one of my edges is learning how to rest and recharge so I’m trying to do that today and also bringing some compassion to how uncomfortable it is for me. My default is go go go which is great sometimes, but also exhausting and nothing is ever enough for my perfectionist part. I want freedom so I am leaning into the discomfort and messiness of growth. Tell me about your messy, uncomfortable growing edge, please!