Suicide awareness Good mental health is tough with or without meds.. if you suffer from things such as severe depression and anxiety. Always check up on your loved ones if they are struggling!! The struggle is real #depressionandanxietysuck
I feel like most people carry a book like this around with them. Its hard to talk about things that have hurt you or experiences that aren't too great and sometimes it causes your mind to eat itself up bc you cant let it out, as for me I'm gonna attempt to open up the first of the many chapters of my book... right now I'm struggling with mad social anxiety (along with other things but this is just one area), to the point where its a barrier for me in a lot of aspects in my life especially when doing 'normal' human things. I can find it extremely difficult sometimes to handle social settings and although I don't show it often, my insides are absolutely crumbling and most times it'd get so bad to the point where I'd sweat intensely and feel like I'm choking on my words... It fuckin sucks and its stopping me from doing basic things in life from talking to people/friends and to getting a job, I guess right now I'm able to talk about it due to recent counselling sessions and just being so pissed off and frustrated by the fact that I'm still dealing with this up to now since a very young age. The thought of me almost turning 20 and having to still deal with this absolutely destroys me inside, I've made measures to try and help it, shit even going overseas to live for a bit played a big role in it... but not much has changed and I feel like I'm always resetting to square 1. I'm just fucking terrified that I'll have to live like this forever and just that thought makes me want to ciao everything. Its gonna take time for me to heal for sure 12 years of bullshit doesn't turn around just like that... It's all a process and I'm just hopeful that these mental therapy sessions will help and I'll eventually become the version of myself I always aspire to be. There's definitely a lot more to it than that and I've never done anything like this before, I'm defs not looking for sympathy or anything I guess its just a vent and a little glimpse into my life and I guess I'm hopeful it
When life gets REALLY tough I tend to shut down. Crawl up on the couch with a bowl of ice cream and Netflix an entire season of the latest trending show. Today, when all I wanted was this, I kicked myself in the butt and went for a walk. I figured a little workout would do me good. I usually pandora rock classic workout or 80's workout channels. Today I felt moved to pick another station. Christian Workout. I had no idea I'd have such a deep spiritual, much needed, conversation with myself. Many tears shed. No neighbors, that wasn't my workout face, that was my ugly crying face. Now instead of ice cream and Netflix, its carrot chips and hummus. FU Satan. I'm kickin' your butt today. #listenwhenhespeaks#christianbuticuss#depressionandanxietysuck#makeanotherchoice#fitgirl#adhdlife#reallife#imaretailtherapist#xraytech#imabossbabe
On days like today, when my anxiety and depression have gotten the best of me. When the world feels like it’s crumbling down around me. When I am feeling lost and don’t know how in the world we are going to survive the next day, week, month or even the rest of the year...I look at her and her baby brother and I am reminded that no matter what is going on, I have to be strong for them. I have to put on a smile and remain a happy mommy because they don’t need to know that our world is crumbling down around us. All they need to know is that they are safe and loved. I thank God for these little blessings in my life. They are what holds me together on these days when I am just falling apart.
All day I’ve seen #ruokday posts.. but how many of them actually have ask a friend, family member or just someone they know are they ok? Always tell the people you love that you care, that no matter what you will always be there.. because someone might seem ok on the outside but aren’t ok on the inside.. #depressionandanxietysuck#iasked#postpartumanxiety