I finally said the 3 big words. In text. 😳 Well first of all he said it in like our first month and I couldn’t reply and now we are in our 4th month and Is till couldnt say it... so I did except in text and then I explained why...
Are you sick of being exhausted and Fatigue? Feeling hopeless, leaving you frustrated into depression. Is chronic illness, aches and pains part of your everyday life? Have you tried to get help but, it’s not working. You have sought many resources but, never find a viable solution. Many people struggle most of their adult life with chronic issues. I know what it’s like to be in constant pain, tired and depressed. Every time I would set goals to change my life for better, I would end up failing by self sabotaging, feeling stupid and thinking I’m a big loser. I had deep rooted issues that doctors couldn’t or didn’t know how to help me. I took control of my life BELIEVING I can do it. And I did it!!! If this story sounds like you, there is hope and we can take control getting our life back. Based on my years of research and my own personal experiences along with intuition, we will uncover getting to the root of the problem causing the health issues you are dealing with. My Name is Julie and I’m an intuitive healing coach that helps restore your health by healing the body of its past wounds so, you can live the life you deserve. I have 4 openings for FREE breakthrough calls this week. Comment “I’m in” or Book a Call. https://lnkd.in/g94KMsm. #pain#anxiety#fatigue#fibromyalgia#irritablebowelsyndrome#unmotivated#depressed#childhoodtrauma
I just supported this brave and necessary project on Kickstarter @mccroreyrd A film by @citiznshane #shanecoffey based on the true story of #gloriacole. Gloria is young woman who is courageously choosing to come forth with her story of sexual abuse as a child. She is a survivor but undoubtedly her experience like so many other children abused by family members - it must be a sort of purgatory. #childhoodtrauma Whether or not to come forth for some sense of justice, peace, reconciliation - but in exchange possibly destroy your family?? Gloria is choosing to empower herself and use her bravery as a beacon for other survivors and a warning to predictors. Link in bio of @mccroreyrd I support you Gloria. It was awesome to meet you and Shane in that diner back booth and get to know you both ❤️❤️ All images by @citiznshane
Too many life changes at the moment. And I’m spending so much time alone resting because I’m recovering from my surgery, that all I have is time to think. Summer has always been for drinking for me. And it’s gotten worse since I’ve reentered school for my PhD and am teaching in academia— I literally have nothing to do this summer, generally speaking. I can’t even really leave the apartment and go on a walk or whatever the fuck, the exhaustion level after is too much. It’s just too much on my body. Recovery from this surgery is going to take weeks, and I’m only one week in. I’m bored. And my partner isn’t around all of the time, so I’m at home alone quite often. Inviting people over sounds so overwhelming, and all of my friends drink— so I feel like inviting them over would include them drinking while we hung out, so that’s just not an option. So, I get to spend far too much time thinking about obnoxious childhood #trauma that lead me here. Here being #selfmedicating, #alcoholic tendencies, & #addiction. The negative emotions are what I used to push down with drinking. I’d suppress the fuck out of anything that didn’t feel good (but of course I’d drink when things were good, too). After I recover from my surgery, I will be able to do some minor work through a consulting thing I’m doing this summer (I’m doing a couple of hours of work tomorrow, which I’m fucking dreading) and then I have to do a lot of writing to do to make- up for some incompletes I had to take from getting sick this semester (what lead me to surgery last week). But I can’t do any of that work until I’m totally better, as it requires traveling to my school and utilizing the library, sadly. But at least I’ll have something to fill my brain that isn’t fucked up shit from my past. #alcoholism blows. I’m pretty lonely and sort of hate everything right now. Also, I super love that I just randomly cried for pretty much no reason. #soberaf#recovery#sober
🤔How is Reiki different than Acupuncture? ✨ One question I get asked occasionally is "What is the difference between reiki and acupuncture?" The answer is that they are very similar with a few distinct differences. ✨ Both Reiki and acupuncture originated in Asia — as healing modalities, each one can be traced back thousands of years. But healing with universal life force energy, or the laying on of hands, is as old as human life itself. Ancient healing philosophies were the opposite of today: the focus was on wellness and prevention, rather than on curing the disease once it had already manifested. ✨ So, back to the differences between these two healing modalities. In an acupuncture session, needles are placed in points along one of the body’s Meridian lines (or energy lines). These lines in the body are like the currents in water and the placing of needles helps the body’s energy flow to reorder and strengthen. As the energy meridian that corresponds to a particular organ/joint, etc is strengthened, then that area of the body will self-correct. ✨ Reiki practitioners move energy with their hands and with their intention rather than with needles, so reiki is considered a more “gentle” and non-invasive method that might be more appropriate for patients who are uncomfortable with the use of needles in therapy. The Reiki practitioner sees the meridian lines in their minds’ eye and usually can feel the energy current in the palm of the hands (something like heat or vibration). With Reiki, the client actively participates in the healing process by drawing down the universal Source energy that is channeled by the practitioner. This drawing in of energy happens automatically with no conscious effort by the client. In acupuncture, the client is lying on the treatment table as sterile needles are inserted into points of energy stagnation. Unlike acupuncture, reiki healing can be practiced from afar and requires no tools or materials to channel
Those who suffer from childhood trauma, developmental trauma, and attachment trauma often carry a tremendous burden. The burden of being shamed, blamed, misunderstood, abused, silenced, confused, afraid and desperate. This is not a burden that you have to carry alone precious soul. I invite you to consider the various ways that you can allow support into your life. I understand that it feels like no one could every understand you. I understand that it feels like everyone who was supposed to love, nurture, and support you in childhood did the opposite. I understand that it may be completely foreign to your body to feel connected, cradled, and seen by another caring person. One of the essential principles of healing is the fundamental truth that you are worthy of love and connection. Part of the body's journey of healing from developmental trauma is rebuilding the bridges of trust and connection to others. Our systems need the nourishment of healthy, safe relationships and communities. As you heal, I urge you to consider the ways which you can invite support into your life. A way to ease the burdens you carry is to share them with others to help you with the weight of it and to eventually help you put your burdens down. If you'd like to learn more how you can be supported by me, and Grow Heal Change Coaching specifically, send me a DM or book a free call in the link in bio. I would be honoured to talk with you about how we can work together.
My newest book, BELOVED is helping individuals across the country finally face & overcome their Daddy Issues. • • I’m a firm believer that every child needs their father. When either parent is absent it creates a void in the life of the child & unfortunately they’ll spend a lifetime trying to fill it whether they admit it or not. • • Over the last few years I’ve taken my healing journey more serious & now I’m helping others do the same. • • A lot of times we grow in age but on the inside that little girl or boy remains broken. • • If you are finally ready to heal & stop pretending as if your childhood trauma no longer affects you, BELOVED: Experiencing God as ABBA in a Fatherless Generation is an excellent resource to add to your library. • • Grab your copy on Amazon or www.CarlaCannon.com!!!!!
🚨VIDEO UPDATE: FATHER'S DAY🚨 You guys, I hate to say it the video is just not working with me. I've literally tried everything. Which tells me that maybe this video or experience was supposed to be just that. An experience. Originally, this episode was designed to be a two-parter, so posting one without the other just wouldn't make sense. So it sucks, like, it really really sucks to loose all that footage BUT instead of sulking I've just gone ahead and created an entire other video about the experience 😂😂 Again, there's not much I can do at this point but I appreciate everyone that did reach out when the 'Trailers' were released. Hopefully this video will be able to cover even a portion of what was originally intended for you guys. In a way I almost prefer this kind of video, it's more intimate and in a way, cathartic for me as the creator. It's going to be something super simple. Just me talking to the camera. So if you're interested in that then stay tunes. If not, the that's cool I'll see you in the next one. As I'm sure you guys know, this experience was one for the books and a few of you have reached out and said not to stress about the video that you're happy that I even shared what I did etc. But in order to say that I did what I came here to do, I have to create something. So I'll do my best to get it up tonight - worse case scenario tomorrow. If you are interested in watching some clips that I was able to salvage then I'll be posting the entire Skype call with my Father (my perspective only) that will be available for Download on @gumroad as well (which will require a small donation to view) Appreciate your patience. I know it sucks to loose week's worth of work in a blink of an eye but sometimes that's just how it is. And you just have to make of it what you can. If anything changes I'll let you know! I'll keep you posted XOXO💛💛
So it's been a tricky few days with the lead up for father's Day and I've been trying so hard to stay out of my head and not acknowledge what I'm going through that it's really taken its toll. Father's Day for many people is an amazing thing, and for others it's a sad thing. For me it brought forward my PTSD that I've been working so hard to beat and ive been sat here riddled with anxiety, flash backs, sickness and confusion/sadness and it's taken me until now to realise that my trigger was from seeing everyone so grateful to their dads - and I'm so so happy for those people, but selfishly ive let it affect me. A lot of you know that I've struggled growing up with an abusive past and I've been working so hard lately to get over it - I've accepted it for what it is, I'm no longer angry about it but I'm now left with this pit of sadness in my stomach wishing I had had the normal upbringing like those I see around me. But now I've let the self pity run its course and I'm back with my mind clear and ready to seriously make changes. He will no longer affect my mental state - I simply won't allow it. This shot is a physical representation of my mind right now and it was styled by @gypsyblooduk the most amazing and supportive person I know ✨ . . . . . #model#fashion#style#love#beauty#photography#instagood#beautiful#girl#photooftheday#hair#cute#like4like#me#fitness#art#photo#modeling#photographer#stylish#pretty#makeup#styles#followme#follow#eyes#girls#scoutmejadore#childhoodtrauma#abuse
*Its taken so much to post this picture, because my self confidence is screaming in fear... but here goes💪🏼 Dear body, I’m sorry for what I’ve put you through all these years. When up until a couple of months ago, you were crying out for food and I’d just ignore you. Dear body, I’m sorry you ended up so malnourished and beyond dehydrated. I’m sorry for the countless hospital trips, the ambulances, the specialists. I’m sorry for it all. I’m sorry that as a result of all of this, as my body you’ve now got to put up with a long term heart condition which is unpredictable and so bad some days, I struggle to get out of bed without my heart rate hitting the roof. I’m sorry for the osteoarthritis we’ve gained along the way, the pain that causes is indescribable! The thing is body, for all these years I’ve been consumed by a bitchy thing inside my brain that tells me it needs to be in control and it’s more important than you body. Yeah, this life wrecking illness still does all it can to take over to the point of hospitalisation again, but this time body, between us, we’re learning to fight back. With healthcare professionals all around and a mental health team who have saved me, and you as my body on many occasions, we can do this. With therapies, meal plans, food diaries, determination and that thing called “self love” that stills hides in the background far away, but we’re working on it slowly! Dear body, I’m sorry for looking in the mirror daily and constantly criticising everything about you, because that’s what my brain installed in me. I’m sorry for the disgust and unworthiness I saw in you as my body everyday. Now, that’s not easy to change, but I’m working on it and now I’m apologising for the pain I’ve caused. Thank you for never giving up on me, because as my body every time I’ve tried to give up you’ve kept me going by doing the best you can! You see body, me and you are a team now, it’s taken so much
The negative experiences from your childhood can have a bigger impact in your life than you are aware of. When I say “Childhood Trauma”, people think about kids living in 3rd world countries suffering from lack of food, love, nurture and a safe environment. Actually childhood trauma is also related to emotional and physical abuse/trauma that was considered to be “normal” by the society we live in. In my case, getting a few (or more) slaps (more like beatings sometimes) was perfectly normal and you would hear me saying: “Hey, I got a few beatings back in the day and I turned just fine!” And while in the outside I looked just fine, I had emotional scars that time couldn’t heal. If you experienced this: -Being insulted, humiliated, sweat at you, to the point of being afraid of being physically hurt. -Getting pushed, slapped, grabbed or being thrown something at you that even left a mark -Felt like you weren't loved, important. Or your family didn’t look out or support for each other -Lost a parent due to divorce, abandonment or by other reason -Lived with anyone who was an alcoholic or problem drinker or used drugs -Someone in your household was depressed, mentally ill or attempted suicide If yes, then when you feel under pressure or stress you feel like you are -Not Safe -Worthless -Powerless -Not Lovable -Cant Trust -You are bad -You are alone These are limiting beliefs that can be compared to having an open wound, and every time a situation touches that wound, your self-defense mechanism gets activated and you act “irrational” just to protect yourself from being hurt again. These wounds can be healed, but you have to take a brave step towards healing. Suffering will NOT heal you, avoiding and forgetting that something happened will NOT heal you, time will definitely NOT heal those wounds Only love and courage will heal those wounds! Only you can begin the process of healing and becoming the person who you were always supposed to be.
Father’s Day reminds me of my FRUSTRATIONS with my sperm donor and my FANTASTIC father who shows my son unconditional love. (see last two posts) I try focus on the positive - my father - but I started the day irritated AF with my sperm donor. I’m a work-in-progress. 🙈 For more progress 🤞🏾@medicatedmotherhood 📷: @nedratawwab
So often we contain our anger, hot and scalding within the pressure cooker of ourselves. We hold it and restrict it, often for very good reason. . . Because we don’t want to unnecessarily hurt those that we love, because we have seen people inappropriately use their anger against others and because we know what it’s like to be on the receiving end of someone else’s fury. . . But there is a difference between healthy anger and harmful anger. . . Harmful anger seeks to destroy, control and diminish. Harmful anger is an unstoppable force that only rests when it is spent and leaves a path of devastation in its wake. Harmful anger doesn’t learn and the repetitive rage often only intensifies. . . Healthy anger has a purpose. Healthy anger moves us, energizes and motivates us to find a way. It alerts us to the burning integrity inside of us and gives us the necessary fuel to speak up, create change and make a difference. . . When we learn to allow anger to move through us, when we learn it’s rhythm and pulsation we can harness its potential and use it to propel us forward. But first we need to be able to learn to meet our anger within. In its movement there is a message and we must learn how to read it before we attempt to share it responsibly. . . TRE has been by far the most potent means for me to be able to safely meet the anger within me and to embody it in a way that serves me rather than leaving scorch makers within or around me. . . Holding anger in will make us sick but harnessing anger will make us whole, give us courage and reignite our spark for life.
Dads are a BIG deal, so I had to get personal for Father's Day 😍. • One year ago, I launched Regal State Mind's website with a blog post apologizing to those who - for different reasons - dislike the holiday (click the link in the bio, it's the first option!). • I'm extremely grateful for my "Boss Man", his love and support and our blossoming journey in understanding each other as adults. But I also understand that this is a privilege. • For those of us who have had the blessing of having a present and active father, I think it's important to learn to hold space for those that cannot relate rather than carrying each other so hard. • I also think it's important to take the steps to reveal to release and heal. The pain you have been feeling cannot compare to the joy that is coming. So acknowledge and embrace the pain to experience wholeness. With love, Tezel (@yourmajesty242) 💚
Isn't grief just the pits? ♡ Sometimes it hits when we least expect it. For myself it was 1 week ago, after my son's cat had passed away. Watching his grief was one of the hardest and most powerless phases I've walked through thus far as a mother. Needless to say, the event had triggered grief in myself I was not prepared for! ♡ We are now in a full moon which is all about going inward and feeling comfortable with ourselves by ourselves. 🙏 ♡ For myself, I went into a deep, yet familiar place that brought up years of disappointment and threw me into every life lesson that I'm here to learn and heal from. At first It felt overwhelming and literally sucked the air out my spirit. I knew that I had to feel, cry and grieve in order to release and heal these old beliefs. Trust me, those old beliefs were screaming at me from every direction. Where I noticed myself stumble, is when I began seeing my life from that old victim archetype. It was right then I knew I had to connect with my light. ♡ Though grief is apart of life at times, it's important for us to feel, release and believe that there is salvation and hope. Nothing is EVER permanent, thank God! ♡ We must love ourselves through the darkness until that beautiful light appears again. It's also important to remember to honor our feelings and allow the grief to come up and out ♡ Once we can hold and honor our wounds with love, we will find peace. ♡ Today allow yourself to be where you are without judgment and know that whatever feeling may be triggered for you through this moon is ONLY hear to help you to purge and heal so to reconnect with your who you came forth to be. ♡ LOVE YOURSELF✨ . . . . #spiritualawakening#spiritualguidance#overcomefears#emotionalhealth#childhoodtrauma#healingtrauma#recovery#sobriety#healingfromabuse#traumarecovery#selfcare#selflove#empath#freedom#spiritualawakening#selflove#spiritualhealing#worthit#mindbodyspirit#worth#lifecoach#selfconfidence
#repost @cptsdsurvivalguide • • • • • • #repost @cptsdsurvivalguide • • • • • • 🌷Gas lighting is when an abuser manipulates you into questioning your own sanity, memory, and perceptions. You may have been gas-lighted into believing that your abuse wasn’t real. Mental and emotional abuse and neglect are hard to trace and prove. But it did happen, and as you heal you have to anchor yourself into this truth and reality. Many victims of abuse have positive associations with their abusers, especially if they were your parents, or a narc who love bombed, or were integral to your survival. This leads to cognitive dissonance about what really happened and who the abuser really was, so it’s extra important to do the work of anchoring in the present, and in reality. Focus your mind on the abusive aspects of the relationship, instead of those positive lingering ones. Remind yourself that it really was bad and think about how, although don’t do this in a triggering way. Rather, remind yourself in order to reduce the cognitive dissonance so you can heal. 🌷[Information distilled from the article “5 Powerful Self-Care Practices That Can Save Your Life After Emotional Abuse” by Shahida Arabi on Thought Catalog.] • • • • #cptsd#cptsdmemes#complexptsdrecovery#mentalhealthawareness#complexptsdawareness#childabuse#childhoodtrauma#healing#healingquotes#healingtrauma#trauma#ptsd#lifeafterabuse#traumarecovery#emotionalabuse#quote#narcissisticabuse#chronicpainwarrior